The question a lot of people ask me is if Aiden and I are really broken up. Yes, for now. Why do I say for now? Because my feelings for him have intensified and I have realized he is the person I'd like to grow old with and take care of when he is drooling all over himself. But, for now, he wants to explore the world around him and the guys in it. Does it hurt? Yes. Can I endure it? I have to. Will I give up? Never. Why? Because this man is worth every moment of the heartache as I wait for my reward. But that is a story for another time, right now I want to talk about the rebound. I have been talking to a few guys, nothing serious or romantic but just some companionship on nights I can't lure Aiden over to watch a movie. The problem is, to me it is getting to know someone and clean fun. To one of them I feel like he is showing romantic interest, and that is something I am not willing to return right for my heart belongs to someone else. There is flirtatious talk and dirty messages, but I don't know how to outright tell him. You're just a rebound. You're something to bide my time until my heart can have what it really wants. Somewhere deep down,I think he knows it though.
I worry that if I settle or if I give in now I'll lose my Aiden. That is something at this point in my life I see as something that would crush my spirit. So, what do you do with a rebound?
~Logan
